Crush Crushed....

It was a weird day...

I dont know what I was thinking

My crush of 1 year was discussing his crush of 1 year with me

Acting cool lyk that was killing me from inside

Hw can you willingly hand over a plant that you have nurtured for so long to somebody you cant even stand

I know love is not in our hands, bt it feels terrible to hand it over without protest

and that lady isnt into anyone, cuz she doesnt want a relationship

My stomach churns even thinking of her name

The only thing that helped me move on from a broken heart was now gone...

Should I have revealed my feelings ???

Should I have made him realise what I felt for him ???

Maybe not


He would have just had sympathy for me

Love does not work on the sympathy grease

There's got to be give n take of love

I am depressed

Its soul sucking

My happiness has been ripped apart in a night

How I regret talking to him last night

A minute was enough to turn my world upside down

Its not his fault

I should've known better

But how can I just move on ???

When life seemed lonely, this gave me a hope

that maybe someday...

It was not to be, alas...

I wished him luck that she finds him irresistible sumday

How I felt like telling him that's exactly how I feel right now for him

He told me someday I will meet my man and he will be perfect for me

How I laughed at the irony that the man I considered perfect was telling me this

Life's an irony, and love's a puzzle...

Someday I too hope that I will have my love by my side and will look him in the eye and thank him for not distorting my vision and letting me find The One...

The Big Bad World of Ours...

नमस्कार न Hola

They say- There is no substitute for hardwork....

But nobody said part of the work is best delegated....

I happen to be interning in a law firm these days. It's just the way I'd expected it to be- Incredibly busy, little impatient, overworked and an air  of arrogance. The person I am interning under is supposedly one of the messiahs in land dealings. I happened to be very excited as land issues are one of the most common issues that make/break a whole family and even blood relatives aren't spared in the quest for land. Learning about the same would have been very crucial and exciting.

I enter and I realise, all I was supposed to do was take over his work and do some clerkship without a salary. My guru was profoundly adept at ridiculing me as the efforts I made weren't what a lawyer does. He instead handed me his work complaining about work pressure and I go to his desk with a doubt... Voila... he's checking out lyrics of Chahun Main Ya Na at lyricsmint.com.

Blood boiled as I saw him do that when I had thought the poor guy is pretty worked up and needs my help to get done with his work.

In frustration, I go and start talking to the typist. Believe me, that 30 minute chat with him gave me more knowledge about laws than I had recieved since the last 15 days. The only obstacle between him and atleast an attempt at becoming lawyer was that when he tried becoming independent... lawyers gave him the stink eye and avoided him like plague... he was practically jobless for 6 months with the others spreading stories about him being COUNTRY BUMPKIN to prospective clients... he's back to the point where he began... typing.

This just made me wonder... are we becoming less humans and more like crabs... clawing our way to pull a person trying to rise above the shackles of poverty and make him go back right where he BELONGS...

Why do we have to feel threatened if somebody "INFERIOR" wants to reach our level if not better than us... Does doing him wrong make us more successful.... do our earnings deplete if somebody's increase... ???

I don't say Jealousy isn't a must in this competitive world... but need we bring someone down to feel complacent about our achievements... ???

I am no saint but yes I too nurse a dream for which getting a plush job at a law firm is is essential... Sometimes earning is a kick, sometimes a necessity, sometimes for need fulfillment and sometimes to fulfill a dream...

If we work endlessly towards our dream and are lost when it gets shattered to smithereens.... why should we purposely kill somebody else's too ???

I had no solution to offer to him, being a 19 year old unemployed student... But he killed the MONSTER in me before it could be born... I hope we too kill our inner demons.... and show a little appreciation of what we have in platter and not try to empty other's...

Cheers,

Have a great day ahead,

Ipshi

Hi readers...

Hola everyone and नमस्कार   

I am a garrulous law student who seeks to write about what does not affect my life or me at all... 

They say- To each his own

We have truly reached to the point in all of our lives where we are caring towards our needs, but we could atleast talk about other's woes.... 

What I seek from this blog is discussion about things happening around us. I am no hound dog feminist who forces opinions on anybody, nor am I any social worker. I discuss what I feel is something we all somewhere could improvise upon. I don't intend to write about the horrific events that we get to read in our newspapers and on the internet. They are discussed by experts and legends anyway, what difference does our angst towards the cause make ???

I intend to write on what we observe around us be it good or bad, for better or worse... and maybe find people who have wavelength of wrongs beyond standards of corruption, female equality, degrading standards of morality etc....

I want this to be a forum where we talk about problems less discussed, non glamorous or maybe taboo but much required pieces of conversations on levels of growing as a society...

Cheers,

• Ipshi